Feels so good to be free

Good morning! I have some good news for all of you who read my blog on a regular basis!!

I pressed charges on my now ex-boyfriend!! I was talking to a friend of mine about it at school and she convinced me to talk to Ms. D about it (she is our choir assistant who went through a similar thing with her ex-husband) So I did. Together they talked me into telling my mom! So I came home yesterday and I told my mom... She was so mad that this had happened to me... and she was also mad because I didn't tell her...

Anyways... we went to the police station and we talked to them there to see what could be done... we took the pictures of the bruises with us... We filed complaints for harrassment...and pressed charges for: assault to a minor under the age of 18... child molestation... and sexual assualt and battery... domestic abuse! Ok well here's the BETTER news...

It comes to find out that another girl who was my age at the time filed similar charges... She dropped the charges and the woman beater came up with a plee bargain... the maximum of 30 days in jail and 200 hours of Community Service... he served his jail time but never did him community service.... which means since he didn't hold up his end of the deal... the case can be re-opened.... except this time we can both press charges and go to trial together... the only thing is that we had to talk her into re-opening her case... well... we did and she is going to...

He did get arrested yesterday...I got pulled out of 2nd period to be told this!!

Any ways... that is all the news I have for today!!

Love
XxXLoSeRcHiCkXxX

A cry for help

This is my official cry for help... I don't know what else to do...

He came over last night... I woke up this morning with my whole face bruises and I have to go to school like this too... I don't know what to do...
Everyone is telling me to break up with him and report him to the proper athority! Is it the right thing to do or should I wait and see if he is ever going to change... My mom hasn't saw this set of bruises and when she does she will probable flip out! This is some of those deep dark bruises that you can't hide from anyone!! Makeup won't cover up these bruises! I don't know what to do...

What is everyone going to say when I go to school? Are my teachers and peers going to think my mom did it to me? Oh no what if they do?

If there is anyone out there who can help me PLEASE HURRY!!


Crying for help~
XxXLoserchickXxX

LONG WEEKEND

I had a long weekend. I am really tired!! Things haven't really gotten any better. He has been drinking and smoking pot even more. I haven't saw him so he hasn't had a chance to beat on me for a while. However, he is coming over today and I don't really want to see him. The last bruise he gave me isn't completely gone yet. My mom keeps asking me where it cam from... I have yet to give her the truthful answer. I don't know how I could tell her with out her getting mad. I don't think any teenager wants to tell their mom that their boyfriend has been hitting her. There is no way to break the news easy.

I grew up where my mom got beat all of the time and she just let it happen. She didn't do anything about it. I always said if it ever happened to me I would leave the person I was with. I guess I lied to myself for all of those years. Look at me now, I haven't left him yet. I don't think I can. I love him so much and I don't want to lose him now!

I am so lost in all the world that I don't know what to do. I don't know what I want anymore. I need help... or do I? May be I am normal... maybe he is the one who needs help!!

~ Confused XxXLoSeRcHiCkXxX

Woman beater

Hey I have been up since 5 trying to email all of the people I haven't talked to in so long. WOW what a lot of people... Valentines Day wasn't a total drag but still a little bit...

I should have known better than to get in a relationship with my ex-boyfriend again!! All he knows how to do it beat a woman!!

We have been together since Monday... He has already hit me twice!! But I love him so much... I have to wear make-up to cover up the bruises!! My mom hasn't noticed yet but I am sure she will soon... I am almost out of excused on my these bruises keep showing up on my face... I can't tell her the truth because he is 21 and I am 17 and he will be put in jail... He was my first love!! I don't want anything like that to happen!! Do I need to talk to someone about it or just let is keep happening?? I don't know what to do!!

I wish I knew what to do!

XxXLOSERCHICKXxX

Yesterday

Yesterday was Valentines day!! I hate it... I am always alone and it is just another day that people can show their "love" for each other. Needless to say I think it is pointless...

However... this Valentines Day was different... My first love showed up on my door step... See we had been talking again now for a while... I didn't think it was ever going to go anywhere though... but we talk every day on the phone and he has become my best friend... Last night we were talking and he asked me to be his girlfriend. Of course I said yes!!!



Well... needless to say... This Valentines Day wasn't a total bummer!! It was actually pretty cool!!

Well... time to go to school... I'm out!!

XxXLoSeRcHiCkXxX

Monday Morning

Today is monday and I am just sitting here eating my egg bagel. YUM YUM!! I am really tired. I can't wait to get back to school though. I have to talk to my choir teacher. I didn't go to practice on Friday because I was sick!! So... she is kinda mad at me!

D.J. once again read my blogger. He said he doesn't talk about his girlfriend just to make me mad. I know it seems that way every so often... but now I know he doesn't!!

It is 5:20 in the am and I am so tired. I took a nap yesterday so it took me a little longer to fall asleep last night. I am away though. I am thinking about going to Starbucks when they open and getting me some coffee!!

I am not sure if I mentioned this before or not so I will mention it now. I have been nominated to attend the Congressional Student Leadership Conference in Washington D.C. I get to meet all sorts of world leaders. I am so excited but I don't get to go until July 27th!! What a bummer... I have to live in suspense until then!!

Well once again we have learned that my life isn't very interesting so I am out!!

XxXloserchickXxX

Long time

It has been a while since I have been able to get online to update any news I might have. Here goes:

D.J. and I have been talking as usual! I think he talks about his girlfriend just to make me mad! I hate to tell him but it doesn't! We are friends and I am like sooo willing to accept it. In all seriousness I hope our friendship doesn't end anytime soon.

School is going good. We are out this week for the flu... WOOO HOOO!!

I quit working at Subway... I went today for an interview at The Fudgery...

I have to go....

~_~Loserchick~_~