2 days and counting

I am so excited I am going home to Tennessee in 2 days... Don't worry I will still post when I have a chance though. LOL

No... the reason I am so excited is because I am hoping to get my life back on track... I want to go back to the girl I once was before I move to Iowa... I was such a good girl and now I am ashamed to even go out in public. I hate the daily attitude I have towards life. It really sucks... In Tennessee I have something to wake up and look forward to. Here... I just feel like it is another day of my life that I have wasted in a drunken state. I have the attitude everyday of "Why do I even get out of bed and try?" In Tennessee I have the attitude of "What is today going to bring for me?" My life in Tennessee actually had meaning. It actually had excitment. People knew me for more than just drinking and partying. They knew me for my good attitude and for my personality. I wish people here could see that. But they don't... I don't know how to show people who that girl is anymore. People here bring out the bad side of me. Maybe when/if I come back I will be changed and strong enough to stay that way. In Tennessee at least I know I have friends who actually care than friends who just use me! I feel like all of my friends here are backstabbers. I hate that feeling. I am not saying when I go home everything will be the same as when I left at a snap of my fingers. It will take a while but at least I know where my true friends are. At least I know that my heart is in Tennessee and it always will be. No matter how many times I move.

I have posted more poetry if you want to go and check it out. loserchickpoetry.blogspot.com
I hope you enjoy it. I am going to go and post some more right now....

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Loserchick