Time to die

Hello fellow bloggers. I thought it was about time for an update.

I have been more depressed than ever. I tried to commit suicide this past weekend. It didn't work coz people followed me around. It really sucks. I don't want to live anymore. What's the point? No one on this earth loves me.

A matter of fact today someone told me they wish I would die. It was the first time out of all the times this person has been hurtful to me she has actually made me cry. It really hit me hard and went to the heart. With the state of mind I have been in; that was not something I really wanted to hear. It made me feel even more unloved. I have been nothing but nice to this girl too. I have treated her like the little sister I never had. Then she has to be really hurtful for no reason at all. A razor blade is looking really good right now. I want to die a slow painful death. I want my body found like three days later so there is no chance of reviving me. Once I am gone I want to be gone forever. No bringing me back to life so I can deal with the pain and the life long scares. I am sick of looking in the mirror every morning and hating who I am, but at the same time can't change who I am. I don't have that kind of power! It all had to change!!

GOODBYE CRUEL WORLD GOODBYE!!!

love always~
Me