New Job... OR NOT?

Today I was supposed to start a new job. I got up and took a shower and went to work. I got there and the manager who hired me was late so I waited. She got there and things were going pretty good. Oh yeah... I am talking about Subway!! Her best friend is a manager at another store and she called my manager and informed her that the General Manager was training another manager to take her place. Well my manager got all mad and she called the General Manager and quit. I was just starting so I couldn't stay there by myself and run the store so she sent me home and said the General Manager would call me. I waited all evening for the General Manager to call and she never did. I went back at about 5 and she wasn't there. I called her and my manager told her that I didn't want to work there if she wasn't there!! She told me to call her on Monday and she will put me on the schedule. WOW what a day of work!!

D.J. found out that I like him. Actually he read my blog on here and found out. We talked about it and he said all I had to do was tell him. He said things wouldn't change between us. We will still remain friends. WOO HOO!!

My week at school was horrible. I have economics homework!! I predict that school will be cancelled on Monday. It is snowing really hard here today! It just started like 10 minutes ago. I am so excited!! YAY!!

Well... I am out!! HAPPY SATURDAY!!

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First day in HELL

Today started a new semester at school. My classes really suck! I have U.S. History, Economics, Concert Choir and Honors Algebra II. They aren't really that hard. It's just the teachers are hard. I think my choir teacher hates me. She made me do a song today just by sight reading it that was in German. It was really embarrassing. I survived though.

I still haven't talked to D.J. about what is going on with me. I don't really know how to tell him. Everytime I think I can I get scared and back out of it. I feel like I am back in my little soap-opera word.

I have a class with my ex-boyfriend. It is really hard to concentrate on doing work. He still talks to me but I don't want him to. He thinks that everything is ok between us. IT ISN'T!!! I don't want anything to do with him, and I wish he would leave me alone. I don't want to hurt his feelings though. I have never been the type of person who likes to hurt peoples feelings. I guess I really need to step up to the plate and not be afraid to hurt people.

D.J. just came online and we are talking. I think this is my chance to tell him. OR IS IT? I don't know what to do. I wish I had a gardian angel to tell me what to do!!

I have to go for now!!

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Today

I was in Christian Chat today. I made some people mad. Me and a friend of mine was playing our type of music. It was country. People started throwing a fit. We finally stopped. Now i am here telling you about it. I finally got my profile finished on there. See this day wasn't a total waste. I did get that finished. I have been meaning to do that for a long time.

I haven't talked to D.J. that much today. I am hoping that maybe I can tell him how I feel about him soon. I don't know how to tell him. I think the easiest way to tell him is through an e-mail. Is that really a good idea though?

I have to go back to school tomorrow. Bummer!! I have been out of school for over a week though so I guess I need to go back! I probably won't get to do any writing through the week. Just on the weekends. It is ok. I will try to write when ever I can!!

See you guys later!!

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D.J.

I have a friend and I am going to call him by his annitials D.J. I met him back in the summer. My best friend wanted me to get hooked up with him. We never got hooked up, but we continued to talk, and we are still friends. We are closer friends now than the best friend who wanted us to get hooked up. I don't really know how to tell him that I like him with out damaging our friendship. He has talked me out of suicide, and he has talked me out of getting drunk several times. I know he cares about me but I don't know if he cares about me in the way I care about him. You see he has a girl friend... I have never met her but I have saw pictures of her. I don't know what to do. Should I tell him and have it be all weird when I am talking to him? I don't know what to do?!?

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