First day in HELL

Today started a new semester at school. My classes really suck! I have U.S. History, Economics, Concert Choir and Honors Algebra II. They aren't really that hard. It's just the teachers are hard. I think my choir teacher hates me. She made me do a song today just by sight reading it that was in German. It was really embarrassing. I survived though.

I still haven't talked to D.J. about what is going on with me. I don't really know how to tell him. Everytime I think I can I get scared and back out of it. I feel like I am back in my little soap-opera word.

I have a class with my ex-boyfriend. It is really hard to concentrate on doing work. He still talks to me but I don't want him to. He thinks that everything is ok between us. IT ISN'T!!! I don't want anything to do with him, and I wish he would leave me alone. I don't want to hurt his feelings though. I have never been the type of person who likes to hurt peoples feelings. I guess I really need to step up to the plate and not be afraid to hurt people.

D.J. just came online and we are talking. I think this is my chance to tell him. OR IS IT? I don't know what to do. I wish I had a gardian angel to tell me what to do!!

I have to go for now!!

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