Have You Ever?

Have you ever found that one person that you know you are supposed to spend the rest of your life with?

Well, I finally have. This man is the only thing in my life that has felt right in a long time. Just the touch of his hand lets me know everything is going to be ok. His smile is so comforting and the looks he gives me one of those that says I love you without him even speaking a word.

When we kiss the whole world freezes in time. Nothing else seems to matter when we are together. He makes me feel so special inside and out. His smile is so comforting, warm, and welcoming. Just the little things he does and the little things he says make me feel like a million bucks over and over again. The way he touches me or looks at me lets me know that he is for real and he really does love me.

He drove here yesterday to see me. Man... after 6 years we have finally met. I was so nervous but I played it cool! I knew from the first time I saw him that he was the one I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. He ended up staying at my house last night. We didn't go to bed until like 6 this morning and I am really tired. However, it was totally worth the time we spent together. We ended up sleeping in the same bed together. WOW, that was one of those thing that feels so right and you know you want to do that for the rest of your life. Sleeping with him made me feel safe. And safe is something I haven't felt in a long time. Just his arms wrapped around me just gave me the extra security. The kisses just made it ten times better.

All in all I think he had a good trip. And waiting 6 years was really worth it. Our feelings are so strong for each other to where I know we have enough strength and faith to make it through anything.

Well... time to go... will talk more tomorrow!

-The Happiest Loser Chick

In Tennessee

I am back home in Tennessee... had a good trip!!! Will post more later!!

2 days and counting

I am so excited I am going home to Tennessee in 2 days... Don't worry I will still post when I have a chance though. LOL

No... the reason I am so excited is because I am hoping to get my life back on track... I want to go back to the girl I once was before I move to Iowa... I was such a good girl and now I am ashamed to even go out in public. I hate the daily attitude I have towards life. It really sucks... In Tennessee I have something to wake up and look forward to. Here... I just feel like it is another day of my life that I have wasted in a drunken state. I have the attitude everyday of "Why do I even get out of bed and try?" In Tennessee I have the attitude of "What is today going to bring for me?" My life in Tennessee actually had meaning. It actually had excitment. People knew me for more than just drinking and partying. They knew me for my good attitude and for my personality. I wish people here could see that. But they don't... I don't know how to show people who that girl is anymore. People here bring out the bad side of me. Maybe when/if I come back I will be changed and strong enough to stay that way. In Tennessee at least I know I have friends who actually care than friends who just use me! I feel like all of my friends here are backstabbers. I hate that feeling. I am not saying when I go home everything will be the same as when I left at a snap of my fingers. It will take a while but at least I know where my true friends are. At least I know that my heart is in Tennessee and it always will be. No matter how many times I move.

I have posted more poetry if you want to go and check it out. loserchickpoetry.blogspot.com
I hope you enjoy it. I am going to go and post some more right now....

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Loserchick