On the Run

I am starting off on another Big Adventure. Big Adventure is my word for running away. I can't smile and play along anymore. I feel so smothered. Everyone has to know my every move that I make. I just can't take it anymore. I just booked a plane ticket for No-wheres-ville, USA.


Everyone keeps telling me I shouldn't run away from my problems. That I can't hide from them. I can't pretend everything is ok when it's not. I am living a life of a liar. I hate it. Everyone just see's what I show them. They don't see that I am really hurting inside. They just see the fake smile I put on everyday. That is all they see. No one even stops to ask how I really feel.

I feel like I am standing in a crowded room screaming, and no one even turns to look. They all think I live a happy life. It is all a lie. I don't. I have not been happy in a long time. Honestly, I don't even know what will make me happy anymore.

I feel like my boyfriend doens't trust me. He keeps asking me questions about everything that is going on down here. He keeps saying he trust me but I know he doesn't.

The song "Because of You" by Kelly Clarkson really fits into this situation. I just can't take it anymore. I want to be alone. My heart is closed again. I don't want to close it again but I am going too. It is because I am tired of all the heart ache and heart break.

**On the Run Again!**